Bliss...

What could be better than carrying a child? Except with my husband...that poor man catches the brunt of it all...I am the happiest I have ever been. Most people dream of a career, or making money, or something else that would make their life complete. This baby is my dream. A beautiful child, conceived in love, with a father that couldn't be a better one. A precious angel in my belly; I'm just waiting to see his/her face. There is nothing I have ever wanted more. I know it sounds too good to be true, but it's true. I always wanted this baby, but I wanted it at the right time with the right person in the right place...and on. This is it! Now is that time! I am married to the right man. We have created a loving, comfortable, warm home. We just needed our beautiful child to complete our home and our family, and now baby is on the way!

Well, just a small rambling on of where life stands, but it's too good to hold it all in!

I love you, baby in my belly!

Setting the Stage

Okay...so I'm working on my birth plan. I'm actually curious to see how my OB will take to it. I LOVE her, but she is very in charge. She even said that she claims her patients' babies as "her" babies. This is not something that offends me at all...for anyone cringing. I was relieved to hear her say it. She will come in to deliver even if it is an off day for her...b/c it's "her" baby. She said if I had an emergency and the office wouldn't contact her, go to the ER...even at 2 a.m. and they would call her at home. She's wonderful.

Now...I want things my way to a certain extent. I think babies' births have become very hospitalized, and I would like for mine to be different. Now mind you, I'm not hippy mama having my baby at home. If she wants to do that (with no complications, it's probably more comforting), great...actually, I'm in awe of those women...BUT NOT ME! EVER! I want that doctor there to assure me everything's okay and to know that if everything's not, I'm seconds away from an operating room, oxygen tank, blood transfusion, etc.

I will post my birth plan once it is completed. I still have research to do on a few topics, and I want to talk to my doctor about a few things before I finalize it. I think I'm pretty easy to get along with. I won't fight any vaccinations, we will be circumsizing (if baby is a boy), etc. But I want NO pacis, bottles, etc in my baby's mouth. I want baby with us at all times...until I decide it's time for me to send baby to nursery for a while...but not because they won't bring him/her to me AS SOON AS I want him/her. I want to be able to be with baby at all times, and if I cannot be, I want Wes to be. I want us to know where baby is, what is going on, and allow baby to have mommy or daddy there at all times. I don't want to be induced early unless there are complications, but I don't want to go over my due date b/c that can add complications. At that point, I want to discuss natural induction, and if that doesn't work, medical induction. I want to delay all pain meds, IVs, etc as long as possible and be able to move around as I need to (I will be bringing my own birthing ball). I will ask for pain meds that have already been discussed with my doctor before I arrived at hospital when I am ready. Please do not offer them any sooner. In the case that I do not progress as I should, I would like the option to return home if less than 5 centimeters, no water broken, and not yet on pain meds. If it is not a medical emergency, but C-section is doctor's recommendation, I wish to have time with my husband to discuss what we would like to do at this point. And the list goes on...

I just hope we don't have any trouble with it. We'll see!

Yuck!

Today is one of those days you want to stay in bed. I really don't feel well. I tried to eat part of my breakfast but had major difficulty swallowing. I feel it (almost 2 hours later) sitting in my throat like it won't go down. So I'm still hungry...and queesy. I'm tired today...go figure...a tired, pregnant woman, no way! The only place I want to be is at home under the covers.

BUT...

I need to save sick time for when baby arrives, or if baby makes me unable to work before he or she arrives. None the less...I guess I'll spend my day watching the clock and wanting to go home.

Again...YUCK!

My Sweet Baby!

So I'm 14 weeks and 1 day today. My precious little baby is beginning to make my belly stick out, really low. I LOVE IT! So far being pregnant has been one of the most wonderful things in my life. But I guess some of that comes from this being the one thing I ever really wanted. I wanted to marry a man I could grow old with, and I wanted to raise babies with him. So far I'm on my way. I'm married to the best man I could imagine...he has his days, but don't we all. And we're 1/3 of the way to bringing our beautiful baby into the world!

I've heard so many women talk about being scared of the responsibility of being a parent. Granted, it all might smack me in the face one day, but right now, I'm not scared at all. I can't wait to be the mother, food provider, diaper changer, storyteller, lullaby singer, cry consoler, bandaid applier, and so much more to this beautiful (what will be) child.

I've loved this baby for so long now. I've loved this baby for years, just knowing that one day, Wes and I would be able to create him/her and love him/her forever and always.

Baby in my belly, mommy loves you, and she can't wait to meet you on the outside in about 24, 25, 26 weeks...but no sooner ;)