Today has been a good day. I got the final 2 out of 3 Christmas trees up and decorated in our house. My husband has been gone most of the day and night doing things with family, so I have gotten gifts wrapped, laundry washed, and more. That's always nice.
So an update on where we are in trying to conceive. I think I ovulated today. I've been crazy trying to temp, chart, and read my body's signs. Mostly I stay confused about whether I have ovulated, or I am going to. But...I think today was the day. I will know more tomorrow.
My husband really wants a boy for lots of different reasons, but secretly I would like a girl. We have 7 boys in the last 3 years on one side of my husband's family, and 4 boys and 1 girl on the other side. In my family, we have 3 little boys and one girl. We have friends that have children...4 boys and 1 girl. To me, it would be nice to shake things up a bit. Although, honestly, it makes absolutely no difference. I just want to be pregnant with a baby. Period.
We are doing well in collecting baby items, maternity clothes, and savings. We are about 70% of the way to our savings goal before a baby is born. This money will cover health insurance premiums, day care, and other expenses for baby's first year. I wish this meant that I wouldn't have to work, but that will not be the case. It just means we will have a financial cushion.
Well, I think I will go lie on the couch, watch a movie, and think...Baby in belly, baby in belly, baby in belly...
Maybe if I chant it enough, it will happen. Just keep praying!
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
My 1st Ever Blog
How exciting! My first ever blog. So many mommies on DS blog, and I love reading theirs so here is mine.
This is likely to be an intersting journey for anyone who wants to take the ride. My husband, Wes, and I are in the process of trying to conceive our first child! This is our first cycle trying. Not to sound pessimistic (and maybe this is normal...I don't know), but I just don't think it's worked this time around. I wonder if other people feel that way. I won't at all be surprised to take our first HPT and see a BFN!! I want to see PREGNANT!! (I'm digitally testing.) But I just don't feel like that will be the case. Maybe it's just my way of keeping myself from getting my hopes up. Who knows.
...This is much more therapeutic than I thought it would be...It's like a cleansing of the heart...
I just want to be a mother so badly. It's been my only real ambition my whole life. I only went to college because that would be a way to provide for my family if...Heaven forbid...something were to happen to my husband. My life's goal has always been to raise a healthy, happy, Christian family. I sure hope it doesn't take us long to get there.
For a long time I was VERY jealous of other mothers. Actually, the day my sister-in-law went into labor with my sweet nephew, I spent a LOT of time in the bathroom crying. I knew that we were not in the right place to start our family. We needed more time and stability, and I wanted to do everything I could right by my unborn, unconceived baby. But that didn't make it hurt any less. The jealousy stung.
It's not the same anymore and hasn't been for a short while. I am happy for other women who are pregnant or who have sweet newborns or goofy toddlers, even though deep down I wish it was me.
BUT...
Now we are on our way to that happy family. Just as soon as we get that PREGNANT reading!! I have 6 tests in the drawer waiting. I'm so consumed by BABY it's almost sickening:)
Please keep us in your prayers if you read this. I'm praying harder than I ever have.
This is likely to be an intersting journey for anyone who wants to take the ride. My husband, Wes, and I are in the process of trying to conceive our first child! This is our first cycle trying. Not to sound pessimistic (and maybe this is normal...I don't know), but I just don't think it's worked this time around. I wonder if other people feel that way. I won't at all be surprised to take our first HPT and see a BFN!! I want to see PREGNANT!! (I'm digitally testing.) But I just don't feel like that will be the case. Maybe it's just my way of keeping myself from getting my hopes up. Who knows.
...This is much more therapeutic than I thought it would be...It's like a cleansing of the heart...
I just want to be a mother so badly. It's been my only real ambition my whole life. I only went to college because that would be a way to provide for my family if...Heaven forbid...something were to happen to my husband. My life's goal has always been to raise a healthy, happy, Christian family. I sure hope it doesn't take us long to get there.
For a long time I was VERY jealous of other mothers. Actually, the day my sister-in-law went into labor with my sweet nephew, I spent a LOT of time in the bathroom crying. I knew that we were not in the right place to start our family. We needed more time and stability, and I wanted to do everything I could right by my unborn, unconceived baby. But that didn't make it hurt any less. The jealousy stung.
It's not the same anymore and hasn't been for a short while. I am happy for other women who are pregnant or who have sweet newborns or goofy toddlers, even though deep down I wish it was me.
BUT...
Now we are on our way to that happy family. Just as soon as we get that PREGNANT reading!! I have 6 tests in the drawer waiting. I'm so consumed by BABY it's almost sickening:)
Please keep us in your prayers if you read this. I'm praying harder than I ever have.
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